Braving My Fear of Closed Doors

My little girl is obsessed with closing doors. She can’t stand it when a door is open – she’ll gets mad if you tell her not to close a door.

 

This is weird for me because I love open doors. I like to see everything, see all my options, let all the light in. I’ve always been terrible at making decisions. My anxiety kicks into overdrive and I’m terrified of making the wrong decisions. You’d think seeing all my options would exacerbate this, but for me, it’s slightly comforting.

 

So, what happens when the doors you wish would stay open suddenly slam closed? What happens when your options shrink?

 

This happened more than I care to admit over this last year. Work doors and friends doors and many other doors slammed shut in my face. And I’m sure, because of the pandemic, this happened for so many of us this past year.

 

I learned on the fly to start appreciating the closed doors for what they were – the universe showing me that those doors were not meant to be walked through anymore.

 

I walked through a door that I never would have considered walking through before. I would always look through the opening, thinking of how awesome it would be to hang out in that room, but “knowing” that it was beyond my capacity, just a dream.

 

Walking through that door brought me to a place of personal growth and mindset shift that I never thought possible for myself.

 

Yes, I had to leave behind the comfort of my options and the comfort of the things I had known in the past – a work situation that I was comfortable in, friends I had thought would always be there. But having those doors slammed in my face allowed me to take that step over the threshold of something I had never thought I was capable of doing in the past.

 

I love where I am now. I wish I hadn’t been afraid of this door for so long, that I could have made these changes sooner. But everything has a season, and I believe in divine timing. Everything happened at exactly the right time for me.

 

Don’t be afraid when the doors you thought would always be open slam shut. Those closed doors may just lead you to the place you love the most.

 

If you’re ready to explore those doors you always dreamed of entering, let’s chat. I’d love to help you on your journey over that threshold, to your dream life.